Happy 5th Birthday Avery Grace...

What a bittersweet day it is for me today, Avery Grace would have been 5 years old today. Do I think about how I should be planning TWO birthday parties at Build-A-Bear for twin girls this month? Of course I do. Am I sad because I will one day explain to Addison that her twin sister has gone to be with Jesus? Of course I am. Do I think about her, and wish she was laughing and playing with Addison each and every day? Absolutely! I am only human, and I hurt and I miss my Avery Grace like crazy!
Do I know that God has a bigger plan for me? Yes, I do. Do I know that He knew that this was in store for me and my family the day that Addison and Avery were conceived? Yes, I do. Am I thankful for all of the lessons that He, and ONLY He has and continues to teach me through this process? ABSOLUTELY!!!

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous--how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
Psalm 139:13-16